Merry Christmas and happy New Year.

I know it’s been awhile since I have wrote so let me give you a quick rundown, My surgery went great it took a lot f pressure of my back but unfortunately I have some nerve damage to my left leg. It hurts but nothing like it did. I’m moving around but sitting is still a chore. I still have 14 staples in my back till the 29th of this month. I want to thank everyone who prayed for my speedy recovery…And those of you who still pray for me. I need all the prayers I can get.

I still struggle every day with my depression and anxiety’s. The free world holds a lot of information and I’m still trying to catch up. I am working on 48 months clean and thank the Lord that I’m ok with that .I do not have the cravings I once did…Praise the Lord. Since my back has been so bad I have missed a lot of my groups and church doings…I hope I can get back to my routine soon I truly miss my Celebrate Recovery and my men’s mountain movers group. Like I said before sitting is still hard and uncomfortable

 

Two weeks ago I lost one of my true dear friends to an overdose. He lived in Oregon and it hit me really hard…I wrote the eulogy for his funeral and let me tell you it was so hard to think of him gone. His Grandma is sending me some of his ashes so I can always keep him near to me, brother. We traveled and did many things together and he will always be in my prayers and thoughts.

 

I want to wish everyone a merry Christmas and a happy and safe new year. I know all you out there that have loved ones lost or in some prison that this time of year for you is difficult. But you know the lord has his plans made out, This I know does not lift the pain but I tell you this from experience, being alone in a cell this time of year really gives a person a chance to be closer to the Lord and realize his or her wrong doings…I myself made many decisions some not the greatest I must admit but I did make some powerful life changing positive changes..This time of year is a time to celebrate the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ and we can celebrate this glorious day from anywhere we are…Of course home with the relatives is the ideal place to be but we must make do with what we have…our body might be bound by chains and fences but our heart and mind run free…