Sometimes a person starts to think too much, I can think about a pencil long enough for it to become the biggest deal in my life. I don’t know about you but this can be very hard and most difficult to get over. I know I hold the keys to my future but sometimes the past just does not want to fade from my memories. The lord knows this to, so I tend to think that he does not want me to move forward till I resolve these past issues. I have had quite a colorful background and have done many of things and hurt many of people in my travels. I just used to do what I wanted with no care of anyone but myself. I’m trying to change that but it troubles me late at night when my mind wonders and my night mares kick in…it’s like I cannot get away from them I’m haunted with the old times and don’t know how to move beyond them…I try getting in my bible and it calms the demon inside of me for a bit but then the devil climbs to the top and tries to gnaw threw my wall of safety..I don’t know if any of you deal with this kind of things and I pray you don’t but as for me it’s a reality of my life and my past. I put this in the Lords hands and I try to surrender it over to the Lord and the Holy Spirit. But it does not stop so there must be a reason for this because i know the Lord will help me remember that nothing is going to happen to me today that he and I together can’t handle..If anyone out there has an idea to help me out i would love to hear about it and talk to you …Praise the Lord.
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Jesus lived to show and example to all of us how to handle “ANYTHING'” and ANY THOUGHT that life can throw at us.
When satan and his lies were hurled at Jesus, Jesus immediately commanded saying “GET THEE BEHIND ME SATAN” . Every time I get down, or bad thoughts, or depressed, I command satan in the name of Jesus Christ to “GET THEE BEHIND ME SATAN. I may have to say this command mega times a day. But it works if I keep saying it over and over, each time the enemy tries to steal my peace and influence my mind with his lies about me, my life, and he even lies about Jesus. The “BIGGEST BATTLE” we have in our lives is the Battle feild of the mind. What we put or allow into our mine 24 hours a day will determine what we have to look forward to think about in our quiet alone times. Prayer, memorizing a scripture(s) from beginning to end plants that thought in your mind forever. Then memorize another scripture. Soon your mind will become “FULL” of Good Thoughts. You can call those memorized scriptures up “ANYTIME” satan and evil ones come to haunt and play in your mind. I always remind myself at all the times that “Inside of me lives (2) wolves, which ever one I feed the most grows the strongest and biggest”. What wolf do you feed the most in the thoughts of your mind ? Feed your mind with good books, starting with scriptures. Fill your mind with prayer. Fill your mind with what you will do that will bring good things. Only look back on the past to learn from it, not be haunted and beat yourself up over it. You cannot change the past… But you can change your future. satan can do much damage in “IDLE” minds. The only thing satan can hope to steal from us is our minds. Jesus wants on to “Move On” now, right away. He keeps reminding us to “NOT PUT OFF the DAY for MOVING ON WITH HIM. He wants to be involved in your battle. If we could fix our self and our mess’s, then we would not need a Saviour. Focus your thoughts and mind on Him. Jesus can and will do more for you than focusing on a pencil ever will. Jesus is in the business of Saving. This is why we call Him “Savior” Even the devils “FEAR” Jesus and have to bow down to Jesus and all those that call out to Him in their minds, through Prayer. Prayer keeps man from sin. Sin keeps man from prayer. One does not have to get perfect or be perfect first, before they can receive help and strength to overcome the battles in their minds. Jesus comes right where you are… when you are ready and willing to submitt to His Powers that are always built on Truth. Stuck…focusing on what you have done wrong, will not empower you. Focusing on Jesus and asking Him “WHERE, not “WHEN” He wants you to start is a good place to bring hope and peace in your mind. Choose this day whom you will serve, then your hauting days will be over. The enemy will keep trying but now you know how to stop him. Even the devils have to bow down to the commands of Jesus. Aren’t we lucky to have a Saviour who stands ready, when we decide we are ready. Know this that every man is free… to choose his life, and what he will be. For this eternal truth is given… That God will force No man to Heaven. Your choice ! If in the end (when our time on earth is up) and we have not chosen the Saviour, then it will not matter what we have chosen. Keep your mind focused on Jesus, than stand back and be amazed at the love and help He has been waiting to bring into your life.
im sure life is tough and a challenge sometimes and i wish i knew how to help ya but i really dont sorry chris trust in the lord
I just want to encourage that we all with a past go though times that we struggle to trust God and his word. I remember when my son pass away I felt nothing but I did what I knew to do. I prayed and went to church and read my Bible. I don’t know nor can I tell you how i made it, there was not a day or a time that something happen to change it but one day I began to see the light and feel God with me again. I look back at some very hard times in my life with my kids and life in general and I don’t know how I made it but I did and life is good again. Working out our lives when we have made many wrong choices takes time and each day that we chose to follow God by faith not by what we feel then we are that much closer to a break though. Freedom is much better no matter how hard it is then living is bondage again. The day I decide to follow God even if I never saw anything going my way was the day that I grew up and things in my life started to change. Hand in there and I will pray for you . You can make it and be a the person that created you to be!
I agree with Donna, having scriptures implanted in your mind is a powerful weapon. It’s amazing how the right scripture surfaces for the right situation when it has been implanted over and over. Even Jesus fought satan with the word saying “it is written”. I too have had to fight my past mistakes and the thoughts that try to do you in, its not something that has happened quickly persistence does diminish those over time.Another thing is to forgive yourself to me that is harder than forgiving others,but we make ourselves higher than God when we don’t and that sure isn’t going to work. You are not alone in these battles. A gratitude journal would also help. I pray for you when God puts your name on my heart. I thank God for how far you have come and look forward to the victories God still has in store for you. Speaking those scriptures out loud is important because we are then feeding them into our spirit.Bless you Chris
Chris, there is a quote taped to my monitor from Charles Swindoll, it reads: “I am convinced that life is 10 percent what happens to me and 90 percent how I react to it. And so it is with you…we are in charge of our attitudes.”
I see and hear your struggle and there is no doubt in my mind that God has placed you on a journey that will bring great change in not only your own life, but in the lives of others as well.
I’m praying for you, son, and I love you.
There is a book called “feel the fear and do it anyway”. It’s a more cognitive approach to handling fear and I find the book very compelling and helpful….all truth is God’s truth and I think this author taps into some of the crazy thinking that binds us up….available thru amazon and is fairly cheap….Fear is part of our life….when ever we walk a new path we struggle…but it beats the alternative!!! God be with you and bless you! you are an inspiration to all of us!
Suzzy,
Thank you for your kind words and the book idea. my new walk is going well..i found that my demons are the Devils work.The devil lost a soldier and he is not happy, I did the work for the Devil for most of my life and im now knowing that he has no power in my life and i thank the holy spirit for this…thanks for your kind words..God Bless you.
You know, I’m relieved to hear of another person’s struggle. Behind the pulpit preaches we stand, declare, read, believe, pray and trust and all of that is correct, but some of us have albeit generational curses, witchcraft, religion, … open legal avenues that allows Satan to torment us. Although all levels of Satan’s army has been spoiled, I have found the Holy Spirit must bring to my presence of mind what needs to be repented of in order to invoke the disarmament that Jesus has already accomplished. It has been my experience the Lord delivers us continually– not in a sense of having to repent for the same sin, but in the sense of after repentance of a sin, He then shows me another. I think it is especially hard if you are the first in your family to be saved and thus pioneering your namesake. Gosh, I’ve been in a vision of a Louisiana swamp watching what appeared to be my great grandmother offering my mom as a sacrifice to Satan. I stood undetected for a while and then the group started throwing spears at me. I called out, “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus” and the vision ended. I will always believe I was confronting the curse of witch craft in my family. I encourage you to praise and worship during the day and whisper, “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus”, when you are awakened at night. Contine to ask Jesus to reveal to you what the secrets are. Love you in the Lord
Bailey,
I thank you for your kind words, I have PTSD from the things i have done and seen. i agree with your description of telling Jesus to stand by my side. I believe im tortured because the Devil has lost one of his soldiers and he wants me back..for many years i hurt and did many wrong things and i know threw the blood of Jesus i am forgiven but thoughts and images still haunt me..i know understand its the Devil trying my Faith.I thank you once again for your kind thoughts
Keep walking in His presence. My daughter is still making bad choices and living with the consequences. I appreciate your honesty. Thank you for giving me hope.