Merry Christmas and happy New Year.
I know it’s been awhile since I have wrote so let me give you a quick rundown, My surgery went great it took a lot f pressure of my back but unfortunately I have some nerve damage to my left leg. It hurts but nothing like it did. I’m moving around but sitting is still a chore. I still have 14 staples in my back till the 29th of this month. I want to thank everyone who prayed for my speedy recovery…And those of you who still pray for me. I need all the prayers I can get.
I still struggle every day with my depression and anxiety’s. The free world holds a lot of information and I’m still trying to catch up. I am working on 48 months clean and thank the Lord that I’m ok with that .I do not have the cravings I once did…Praise the Lord. Since my back has been so bad I have missed a lot of my groups and church doings…I hope I can get back to my routine soon I truly miss my Celebrate Recovery and my men’s mountain movers group. Like I said before sitting is still hard and uncomfortable
Two weeks ago I lost one of my true dear friends to an overdose. He lived in Oregon and it hit me really hard…I wrote the eulogy for his funeral and let me tell you it was so hard to think of him gone. His Grandma is sending me some of his ashes so I can always keep him near to me, brother. We traveled and did many things together and he will always be in my prayers and thoughts.
I want to wish everyone a merry Christmas and a happy and safe new year. I know all you out there that have loved ones lost or in some prison that this time of year for you is difficult. But you know the lord has his plans made out, This I know does not lift the pain but I tell you this from experience, being alone in a cell this time of year really gives a person a chance to be closer to the Lord and realize his or her wrong doings…I myself made many decisions some not the greatest I must admit but I did make some powerful life changing positive changes..This time of year is a time to celebrate the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ and we can celebrate this glorious day from anywhere we are…Of course home with the relatives is the ideal place to be but we must make do with what we have…our body might be bound by chains and fences but our heart and mind run free…
Dear Bad Guy gone Good,
Awesome that your clean and sober still, even after back surgory. My husband and I are clean and sober two and half years and no one ever thought we could do it. I never went to prison but went to county 46 times in all and definately became institutionalized. I too have experienced alot of what I read about in your blog with anxiety in the real world and as me and my husband call them “Earth People” 🙂 today I have NA, AA, and know who my Maker is. Without a prayer warrior Mama, and finally surrendering to my addiction and putting my mind in the Bible every morning and talking to God I don’t know think I could have did this. Keep on keeping on…… Ps. I’ve never wrote on a blog before and don’t know if you write back or not, but either way thankyou for sharing your hope and strength today.
Regina, Thanks for your comment. It means alot when i get someone who has been there and is making it..Its no Joke out in the real world.Im working on 48 months clean and the first 40 i did behind the walls of a maximum prison..there are more drugs in there then out here it was a challenge to say the least.Im happy for you and your husband..One day at a time thats all we have to work on. It helps to stay with the Lord And stay in your bible..I excepted the Lord back in 03 in a federal prison and my life was good then i got lost and in 05 went back to prison and now involved in a good church with a great support group keep it up and stay in contact .Im also at cjsmith4749@gmail .com. have you checked out my mothers site at allisonbottke.com we are collecting storys from ex-addicts and you can check out her site look under God Allows U-Turns for more info…God Bless and stand strong….Chris